這是一個甚麼樣的格局?

首先我必須為我一些短視的想法自打一下(輕輕的)。這 2020 年所見所聞,這樣說吧,昨日的我不提也罷。今日的我,沒有以往的堅定,通過上一任美國總統,霾霧散去了不少,一些迪士尼式的大團圓幻覺也消失了,換來很多人性的現實,以前覺得理所應當的事,可能武斷了。每個人都覺得自己在做自己認為是對的事情,站在自己的角度看都是黑白分明,對錯都那麼直接方便。但是當在你站在的那一方地搖擺不定時,左會變成右,右會變成左。今天支持的概念,明天換了個名目便成了打壓的對象,只是說法罷。

最近看了一個 documentary 名為『Agenda: Grinding America Down』看了上集便不敢繼續,怕它所敘述的是真,那我便是深深中毒了,因為我一直相信的事,原來是荼毒思想的東西。影片中說除了以基督教為基礎的東西,都是一些人由五、六十年代開始在社會裏滲透的思想,以達到讓共產黨統治全世界的目的。這些思想概念,比如離婚、單親家庭、墮胎、性濫交、女權、同性戀、種族主義,利用公共學校教育和資訊媒體傳播,意在讓人民愚昧化,依賴各種的福利,政府便可以完完全全控制人民。而時間正在引證他們所計劃一步步正在實現。共產黨對人性的了解真讓人驚訝,但我不相信他們這如意算盤能成功,因為這些人最後都會互相撕噬,因為他們沒有信仰,沒有信任,沒有憐愛,他們長期在恐懼中,為自己的權力和地位,互相做出極之殘忍的事,到最後只剩滅亡。當然,沒有人可能一直生存下去,總是會死亡的,所以活着的時候要盡力活得有意義,是怎樣的活法都是自願也自己的責任。他們改變不了先人定下的道德標準,只要我們多思多想,便不會跌入他們所設下的謎魂陣裏,而他們的計劃便不能得逞。時代不斷進步,現今在生活中一些普通正常的事,在五、六十年代是難以想像,但有一些道德觀念是不變的,也算是一些自由的初心,因為人類文明應建立在不受約束和自律的平衡點上。

Love and… the half of it

What is love?

Love is messy. And horrible and selfish and … bold. It’s not about finding your perfect half, it’s the trying… and reaching and… failing.

~ Ellie Chu

The film tells the story of Ellie Chu, a shy, introvert teenager who helps her single dad pay the bills by ghostwriting essays for her peers. One day, her services are solicited by Paul Munsky, a bumbling jock with a crush on popular girl Aster. Ellie is also into Aster, and in spite of this (or perhaps because of it), she agrees to pen love letters to her on Paul’s behalf. Paul and Ellie soon become unlikely friends: He cooks for her and defends her from racist bullies, and she drills him in art and philosophy. All the while, Ellie continues to fall even harder for Aster, as Aster does, unknowingly, for Ellie. (excerpted from The Cut review)

This bittersweet movie checks many boxes of my own experience, how growing up sometimes is a lonely thing, especially when you are different from everyone else. The struggle is a process of frustration and loneliness before you finally can truly embrace it and celebrate it.

And being bold about love is like spending the last $5 in your wallet on a lottery ticket.

寬恕

間接又間接找到這句名言:

The most beautiful people we have known
are those who have known defeat,
known suffering, known struggle, known loss,
and have found their way out of the depths.
These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity,
and an understanding of life
that fills them with compassion, gentleness,
and a deep loving concern.
Beautiful people do not just happen.
~ Elizabeth Kubler Ross

好一句「Beautiful people do not just happen」
真是再精彩不過
看似得天獨厚
其實背後困難重重跌倒再爬起不為人知
往往就在一般人的埋怨聲中悄悄在進行
人只看到人家的成功
看不到背後的委屈和努力

看了之後
起伏心情給撫平了
沒有甚麼值得生氣
做   不是給誰看
自己知道就可以了

加送一句,好好感受這種超然的品格,學無止境。

People are like stained-glass windows.
They sparkle and shine when
the sun is out,
but when the darkness sets in,
their true beauty is revealed
only if there is a light from within.
~ Elisabeth Kubler-Ross